Chic!: Spiritually impoverished on a Sunday.

18th century dance card

The pink ribbon I tied around my neck like a Christmas puppy strangled me awake. Lacy panties, smudged black kohl, and over-lined red lipstick—I never feel more like Kate Moss than I do on Sunday mornings. Had a carrot for breakfast and wished I was neater. It’s so unfortunate that one’s spiritual condition is so strongly mirrored in one’s material reality. My messy apartment is a symptom of a persisting sense of American ennui—a sort of lasting, lethargic, listless boredom—one that I continuously seek to treat with Saturdays, to no avail.

Last week, I tried appealing to the water body in its many forms. My friends and I crowdsourced a hot tub, pruning for two consecutive starlit evenings with all the panache of the Romans. I pled to the creeks—but the swallow of nightfall on the waters I had once found a peculiarly large bone in made for a hurried escape through the looming woods. Finally, the redemptive shower, with the water set to boil. Still, I could not stand, letting the hot rain lacerate my crouching back.

It’s just like a Sunday, though, to leave a hungover girl swaddled in a white puff of blankets, frequenting the same forums and blogs of an awkward adolescence. I have to admit, I feel a deep sense of internal pride and shame in my online presence, wherein I’m quite happy with the communities, images, and sounds I’ve encountered in the cyber yet simultaneously ashamed of the habitual loneliness that leads me to seek fulfillment in these spaces to begin. Despite it all, the spiritual impoverishment of my ennui propels me this morning to browse the likes of /mu/ on 4chan in search of a new sound to invigorate my weekly search for the sublime.

Although most of /mu/ is taken up by shitposting, W-Pop discussion, and /mu/core normies, you can occasionally find some real gems. Here are the top 10 chillest songs/albums I found on /mu/ while chicly depressed in bed:

1. Quinteto Armorial - Do Romance ao Galope Nordestino (1974)

1. Buum - 🚲

1. Sunscreem - Perfect Motion

1. Wots My Code - Dubplate (Total Science Remix)

1. Takkyu Ishino - Polynasia

Yeah… I thought I was gonna have 10 but I stopped caring halfway through this list LOL.

Let’s see… This upcoming week I’ve got a test on Thursday I’m quite anxious about and three papers I’ve got to work on. Praying I can still enjoy the gorgeous summer weather this week while also applying to graduate on time and finishing all my work. Maintaining the depressed party girl lifestyle isn’t without its hardships, but someone’s gotta do it. Next week, I’ll try to do either a weekend party rundown, venture into life as an urban hunter gatherer, or a style blog. We’ll see what I have time for.

In the mean time, try to imagine what your own neolithic burial might look like and what manners and ways of the material world would honor your physical existence on Earth best? I think if I was to be buried at the current moment, I might like to be laid to rest with layers of gold bangles on my arms, my gold cross weighing heavy on my neck, perhaps the paint hand prints of my closest friends and family near my heart, and an ashen cross made upon my forehead (I’ve always been enamored by Ash Wednesday).

Hope to see you again soon,

Andrea